Everywhere I notice babies & pregnant women… Everywhere!!! Has this always been the case? Or I am only noticing growing belly’s because I’m anticipating the birth of my own child. It seems light years away but March is around the corner. Yikes! What have I gotten myself into? Clearly people do this every day, so why am I so nervous?
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It’s my job to capture families & provide them with a glimpse of the priceless moments happening day to day. I cherish my job, the opportunity to craft everyday moments into priceless images & I adore the beautiful families that grow with me. I’m comfortable with newborns & children adore me! You’d think I wouldn’t be nervous since children fill my days.
But shortly, I’ll come home with a newborn infant… my very own baby!? A child I can’t return at the end of a photoshoot! This tiny person will rely on me for it’s very survival. She will depend on me to teach her right from wrong and it’s hard to imagine this different life before it happens.
Only now do I fully understand the vast emotions weighing on parents before they welcome a child into the world.
Pregnancy prepares you for birth, not for motherhood
And nature is a cruel mistress! While I dread the arrival of a newborn, I relish the chance to rid myself of this swollen belly & again bend easily to slip on my shoes. The joys of seeing my own feet again- I can’t wait? In these final weeks, I welcome the pain of childbirth while fearing the failures of motherhood.
I’ve always thought pregnant women were beautiful but when I look at myself in the mirror, it’s different. Now I truly understand how hard it can be to take photos when your body is COMPLETELY different. I still see the beauty of pregnancy but I won’t pretend I’ve enjoyed watching my body change shape. Not only is it difficult to watch, it’s agonizing to think I’ll never fit into my favorite jeans again!
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A small price to pay for a beautiful new life but challenging nevertheless.
Since you all allow me to photograph your lives, I thought it was only fair I share a few photographs of myself. I set up my tripod and took a some self portraits of my growing belly last month. I couldn’t help but stare at my thighs. Hopefully in time, I’ll grow to appreciate the wonderous gift these thighs are carrying.
Until then, I’ll waddle around and assume I’ve got the right shoe on the right foot.
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